Just please know that I want you to be more than a memory, more than the wasted wish on my twenty first birthday cake.
RIP Maggie Stocklin, aka the EL troll on my fake id haha.
If I could I would shrink myself and sink through your skin to your blood cells
and remove whatever makes you hurt but I am too weak to be your cure.
Thinking of the greatest girl I know. Making myself embrace my faith. She will be okay, she has to be.
I need you to stop being fucking retarded and be my boyfriend again ok? Just knock it off. You’re an idiot but I dealt, now stop and come back to me. I miss you.
Maybe I was too pale
Maybe I was too fat
Maybe you had better
Better luck in the sack
No formal education
And I swore way too much
But I swear
You didn’t fucking care
Katy Perry, I’m still Breathing.
If you knew the way I’ve been self-medicating, prescribing myself the darkest sleeps with triple doses and finding my place back once again at the bottom of a bottle. If my mother knew, if you knew. I’ve got it all in this blood, these genes I wear so well; the tragedy and addiction and self-infliction. I am falling once again. This is not who I am supposed to be. There are pages I find folded with grace in boxes beneath my bed, my potential indented in the words I wrote at seventeen and thought would be my saving grace. I wanted to tell the stories of the world. Too smart to think I’m not smart. I am floundering it all. I am lost and alone and have been left to drown here in the flood you started when you broke down all my damns.
Hunter S. Thompson
(Submitted by: christinakim)
I was smart enough to know, dumb enough to listen to everyone else.
Consider my heart disintegrated.